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"Exaggeratedly emotional or sentimental" proves my point. The emotion and sentiment were never exaggerated, because every time I really thought I had enough will power to pack it up, and call it a day. It was a hard line to walk, because though I never planned to be a part of a community, it just sort of... happened.
Then I'd go great for a while, and sign on ICQ to send an SMS, and suddenly Noq's talking to me, or Cyrris, or maybe even Coyote... and I lose track of time. Next thing, I'm being egged on to "come back" to the Forums, to ICQ, to everything.
And in 2002, I used the internet as a crutch. I took things too seriously in my real life, chalked up my parents as assholes, and my friends as dicks, and spent way too much time on here, on GSF, etc... and I got respect, and sympathy, and encouragement to be awesome online... it was all well and good, until I went back and read my journal, and could not believe how overblown I'd made things, how different I felt to how I sounded.
Explaining me, and who I am, and what I do and why takes too long. I talk differently to different people on the internet, joke differently, relate differently. My history was filled with conversations about games I'd never even played, just to feel I fit in. Do you get what I'm saying? I was devoting my time and effort to a bunch of people that I'll never know, and never meet, that no matter how close I allow myself to get to, will never be there for real... a bunch of people that while I said (and thought) I was being the real me, was probably being less me than I am to people in real life.
Where I thought my internet self was the purest example of who I was, I can see that it's worse than my real self... arrogant in some company, kind and forgiving in other company... too many sides...
I'm officially ranting here, probably making for more questions than answers... I'm sorry if you don't get why, and really, I'm surprised you've taken this big an interest in asking... or pointing... just note my name under LDL's on the clan site.
The method of communication (the internet) defines what is 'real' and what is not?
So, let's get this. If you have a really good friend on the internet, he's not a 'real' friend, he's just some internet friend, defined as not real just because he doesn't talk to you face to face?
Perhaps you need to break down the barrier between your 'real life' self and your 'internet self'. I understand your position but it's a wasteful one to be in. Just be your internet self in real life, and don't give a fuck about what other people say. Also, stop classifying people who are your friends yet only contact via e-mail or ICQ, as not-real.
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Then I'd go great for a while, and sign on ICQ to send an SMS, and suddenly Noq's talking to me, or Cyrris, or maybe even Coyote... and I lose track of time. Next thing, I'm being egged on to "come back" to the Forums, to ICQ, to everything.
And in 2002, I used the internet as a crutch. I took things too seriously in my real life, chalked up my parents as assholes, and my friends as dicks, and spent way too much time on here, on GSF, etc... and I got respect, and sympathy, and encouragement to be awesome online... it was all well and good, until I went back and read my journal, and could not believe how overblown I'd made things, how different I felt to how I sounded.
Explaining me, and who I am, and what I do and why takes too long. I talk differently to different people on the internet, joke differently, relate differently. My history was filled with conversations about games I'd never even played, just to feel I fit in. Do you get what I'm saying? I was devoting my time and effort to a bunch of people that I'll never know, and never meet, that no matter how close I allow myself to get to, will never be there for real... a bunch of people that while I said (and thought) I was being the real me, was probably being less me than I am to people in real life.
Where I thought my internet self was the purest example of who I was, I can see that it's worse than my real self... arrogant in some company, kind and forgiving in other company... too many sides...
I'm officially ranting here, probably making for more questions than answers... I'm sorry if you don't get why, and really, I'm surprised you've taken this big an interest in asking... or pointing... just note my name under LDL's on the clan site.
So, let's get this. If you have a really good friend on the internet, he's not a 'real' friend, he's just some internet friend, defined as not real just because he doesn't talk to you face to face?
Perhaps you need to break down the barrier between your 'real life' self and your 'internet self'. I understand your position but it's a wasteful one to be in. Just be your internet self in real life, and don't give a fuck about what other people say. Also, stop classifying people who are your friends yet only contact via e-mail or ICQ, as not-real.
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